i’m still on leave.i received phonecalls from site early this morning.their calls always make me awake and not able to continue my sleeps.this morning was the worst–our relays cant accept 24VDC signals given by the PMCS.i was the one who approved the design,prior to the fabrication stage.looks like we need to do major modification on the panels!duh~~

i was sat down by the phonecall.and i istighfar few times.it really really made me think-i kept on making mistakes.whyy?!tho our boss kept on saying that it is normal for us,young engineers to make mistakes but i feel so stupid rite now.

i grabbed my towel and had my shower.but my mind kept on thinking bout the call.i cant think rationally.i called my senior and asked him how to go about this..

monologue : just so u know, i have 2 seniors.2 different characters.senior A is currently with me at johor whilst senior B is at KL office. senior A will always think of solution and NEVER blame me on my mistakes.on the other hand, senior B will definitely say like, “kenapa awk tak check….” and make this look-macam-aku-ni-tak-reti-buat-keje.helloww,you are all with 7 to 8 yrs experience while i’m not even 2 yrs in this project let alone this is my first.pls spare some mercy and perhaps guide me???duh.and of course, senior A loves to guide me and make me feel good about myself however senior B more to criticising like “laa duk site pun tak tahu” kinda thing.whyyyy???

enough babbling.so obviously i called the senior that i prefer most, senior A.huhu.i just need a shoulder to cry on.oh no,i was not crying,ppl.haha.so he told me what i should do, as always and,

senior A : i think i have to call senior B and tell him about this
me : em are u sure.its weekend rite.he must be with his family or something
senior A : no i have to tell him coz later on he will scold me of not telling him

yes,of course.i’m sure i’ll receive senior B’s call this coming monday and o Allah pls give me strength… —

so about the issue, just now i sent an email to the consultant and the manufacturer on the issue.and all i can do now is pray hard that everything will be okay inshaAllah.

yes, this is piece and parcel of life.theres no bed of roses in this carier life.u face different kind of ppl.different attitude.different behaviour.cope with stress.semua org ada bahagian masing2.maybe this is mine.i cant run away from this.so just face it.thats the price i have to pay when i enter this world.goodluck to me.

oh this entry is a piece of disaster.a bit here and there.no sequence.thats how my mind works rite now.sorry peeps..